It was a moonless night, Bangalore was colder. With lack of sleep and
food for the past few days, I was feeling weak It was more that I was crawling then walking. I was tired of making her understand.
I was tired of my wet pillows. Did I really deserve this? Was I born to suffer? I need an end to this.
I was crossing the silent road, as I reached the middle, I decided to
stop and end this all for good.
An ending for a happy beginning. I did resist all this long, but not anymore. I am unable to bear the pain any longer. I waited at the middle of the road for a while. I saw an SUV speeding towards me at some distance, I felt so happy, finally there will no more of this pain. I closed my eyes and waited for its arrival. The next thing I heard was the screeching noise of its tyres. It stopped a few meters in front of me. I opened my eyes, it was clear to me that I will be scolded badly.

The guy came out of his car, all dressed in white and smiling at me.

The face looked similar.

May be I saw him earlier somewhere. Then I realized, it was him.

“F**k, was I dead already?”

"Why am I still feeling the pain then?"

He said, "What makes you stare at me?"

and I replied "your face seems similar with my gf's first love. "

"I mean my ex gf."

Other guy: "And, does that make you stare?"

me: "Actually, he died in an accident a few years back."

Other guy: "Yes, I am that very guy. I got your prayers and came for
help. You wanted to meet me, didn't you?"

me: " Yes, but is that possible?"

Other guy: " Yes, that's why I am here?"

Me: "Okay, but why did you listen to my prayers? Am I not the one who
hurt her? So, why did you come to me? "

Other guy: "Yes, I know. This is why I had to be around her for so
long. I know you do care, but all you show is your anger. How can she know that you ever care, if you show her just despair?

This is your final call, it's now or never. Have you realized that, idiot?"

Me: "Huh, I am at the middle of the road at this time of the hour,
don't you realize what makes me here?"

Other guy: "Oh, you started again? Still so rude when you are already in a
sinking ship."

Me: "I am sorry."

Tears rolled down my cheeks.

Other guy: " I do understand, that you are the one who can take care
of her life long, but this is not the way to care people. Things will be okay,never be rude. Show her how much you care for her. She will be forever yours. I
promise you that. And even I can stop worrying for her then as I left her alone."

Me: " I understand. I Love her lots. But may be I never made her realize that, as my actions were always meaning the opposite."

Other guy: " Promise me then, that you will never make her cry again.
That you will be on her side, whenever she needs "

Me: "I promise. I can do anything for her and always keep her happy"

Suddenly everything went blank. As if I became unconscious.

After a long blank, I shivered and woke up on my bed.

That was a dream.

I checked the my phone, it was 8.45 AM. Then saw the last text
messages from her. I had never even thought of contacting her again after the things she said to me over the phone last night.

Still, I called her, and acted like nothing had happened, breaking my
promise of never disturbing her again.

And the rest is history.

Perhaps the angel from my dream did some magic, which I could not with all my efforts.

I was crying out loud at my fate
While you were busy planning your date
I was bruised and crying in pain
Still all my tears went in vain
I hit my head hard on the wall
As if I wanted to shatter my skull
I tried so hard and went so far
Now my life is just full of scar
There are plenty of wounds to stitch
I always knew that you were going to ditch
It happens when you think with your heart
My world seemed to fall apart
I was hurt like I never had been before
You were never mine even when you were next door
I howled and cried, unable to bear the pain
While you stood there thinking of your gain
I always dreamt you to be my wife
But I am no longer a hindrance in your life
You are now and always confused
The only thing you remember is being abused
You never realized how much I care
Always wanting an option to carry a spare
Now you have the freedom you always asked
You can now uncover your mask
I am not a Leo but a Capricorn
What can I do? that is what I was born.
My birth date does not make upto six
I never thought that even that will be a risk.
My existence made your life crappy
Atleast now without me you can be happy!!
I am just waiting for the day
Which is not very far away
When I will be amongst the graves
Far away from the mundane craves
It may be in months or may be in years
But I was dead for you the very day
When you made the choice and went away..

I used to love train journeys, they are always fun when you are travelling in a group. This time though, I was travelling alone. The three day journey to my homeland has always been memorable. I was looking around the platform, hoping to find any familiar faces. Till my last journey, I used to look around for girls, checking the reservation list for girls around my seat was the first job. Gone were those days. I am committed now. I have a girl in my life for the past one and half year and I am very happy with her. Since then, I never even tried to have a slightest glance at any girl. I felt it was also a form of cheating on her. She was in Guwahati already, and we have plans to meet, go for movies and a long list, before I go to my hometown. All these thoughts came to my mind. I was never bothered to check on the reservation list this time. Found my seat and sat down, waiting for the journey to begin. Just then a guy came and stopped, I had a glance, a funky looking guy with piercing and tattoos. He was on my opposite seat. I never used to talk with these kinda guys; moreover my gf hated these kinda guys which made me hate them even more. So, I ignored him, trying to go through one of the magazines which I had brought for my company. The journey began, and gradually but unknowingly, I started to interact with the guy. A bong guy from Guwahati, which somehow made me closer to him, as my Gf was bong too. We talked of our lives and love stories. I found his gf was equally committed to him like my gf. He got innumerous calls from his gf, which made me feel jealous. But somehow I felt connected to him, which made me happy. I thought my magazines would give me company, but his company made the journey shorter. Two days passed by, the next morning we are supposed to reach home, I was having goose bumps on my skin; at last I am reaching and meeting her. So many plans for so long for this big day. He asked me to show my gf’s picture. I didn't have any laptop or a Smartphone, so I couldn’t. But I promised him that me and my gf will definitely meet him in Guwahati. He replied “My laptop is deep inside the baggage bro, but will take it out and show you our pictures tomorrow morning. I smiled. We both were eager to see each other’s girlfriends as we have heard and told so much of our love stories. Next morning he woke me up, "Bro, we have reached Nalbari" and passed me a cup of tea. He was already doing something in his laptop. He called me " Bro, check out my latest Birthday pictures, she had got a pretty cake for me. Isn't she cute?” I came down from the bunker bed, stood beside him and looked at the picture. I rubbed my eyes again.

I was shell shocked, as if somebody had forced me to jump from an aeroplane. The plastic cup dropped down from my hand. He kept staring at me. I silently walked away; I really needed a breath of fresh air.

(This is a work of fiction, any resemblance is purely coincidental)

It was an usual day or you can say night, back from office, bit of facebooking, went to news sites,the same story of the girl molestation taking different twists every day. Now, some youtube, came upon Satyamev Jayate (Old age episode). As the episode went by, pictures of different persons came to my mind, the different stories were actually happening around me. Son neglecting his parents at their old age, forcefully taking away their property and even to the extent of snatching their belongings, is very much evident in our society. I have been away from home since 2002, and still know such persons in and around who have been doing such misdeeds without slightest fear.The funny part is that, the same lot of people devote ample amount of time to preach God, visit temples. How great is that? You can't respect or care for your parents and still do expect that God be kind to you. We have not seen God in his mortal form, but it is only a belief. But parents are the real God in this world, who brought you to this world. If you are good to your parents, you need not go to a temple. It is a known fact that sons become goons only after they get married. I understand that responsibilities do bury you. But why do you have to forget the people who were responsible for your very existence. If you can care for your wife or even a girlfriend, run around her leaving your responsibilities, why can't you find some time for your parents well being? 50 years down the line, your kids will too learn the same, and treat you in a worse way. And let me remind you it happens only with guys, girls remain the same throughout even if she gets married. Yes, she is also partly responsible, but guys do have a brain and a heart, don't they? If you are away from home, just ask your girlfriend once, that your parents are gonna come over and stay with you permanantly. You will know her intentions wide and clear from her behaviour.

Early morning, back from office, the first task is to log in to Facebook. A familiar face popped up in the "People you may know" section. It was her.With much thought and deliberation, I clicked on it. She was wearing a pretty purple dress and a shiny watch, with a gorgeous smile which she always had, the very smile which used to make me go mad. I smiled. It made me remember of our days together. On weekends, window shopping was a fun activity. She used to stare at the dresses in the malls, look at their price tags and move away. While I used to calculate my finances, but with the little pocket money, it was too much that I can afford. But she used to smile and say, "someday I am gonna have all of them". The day has finally arrived. A teardrop fell down from my cheeks. I was feeling happy and sad at the same time...

Couple at a local pub, enjoying beer and Wimbledon on a large LCD..

Gf: I think I am drunk dear

Bf: Why?

Gf: Look at the TV screen..

Bf: So?

Gf: Look at the upper left corner. Mujhe Federer ko Ferrer nazar aa raha hai.. N even Federer ko kuch alag dikh raha hai

Bf: Darling woh Ferrer hi hai.. not Federer

Gf: oh !!!

And I had a hearty laugh sitting right next to them!!!!